回头望一望，一年已经过了。距离那心碎的日子已经快一年半了。那时，我小小的玻璃心彻底地碎了。
我不哭。固执的我蹲在那里慢慢的把我的心给捡回来。一次又一次，破碎的玻璃割到了我的手。的确，这个过程真的很不容易。虽然，身边一直有朋友家人的鼓励，支持，但，始终我还是要靠我自己把它给找回来。
当然，它虽然碎了，它还是很重要的一部分，所以决定了，要把它给修补好。这个过程好不容易，结果，我躲进了某个地方，慢慢地进行修补工作。这里的人潮一样的多，只是换了人物。以前，我好期待去接触的，但是，恶魔用绳子紧紧地绑着我。庆幸的是，天使终于抓到恶魔的把柄，把它给灭了。终于，我自由了，但是，自由的代价是我的心不经意的碎了。
如今，自由了。我的世界了重现日出。现在的我，虽然不再像以前那样，但是，我很开心。我把心修好了，我也开始慢慢的站起来了，虽然，我还会躲在某个角落，用盒子把我所修补的心收好，捧在我的手中，深怕它会再跌倒。
乐，是的，或许我心里的某个角落还有夕阳的光绪。但是，我会把这一点残留着的光给收起来，不再告诉他。
迎新一系列的活动完了，检讨完了，庆功完了。感觉消失的快七七八八了，却在现在才要写blog..怪人。
当初选择一个人参加迎新，第一次在筹委成立时，当时，我是觉得自己有够闷的，谁也不认识。也不懂为什么自己还能留下来。要在一个不完全陌生的环境待下来，不难，却也一点都不容易。
结果，我还是留了下来，待在活动组里。在一个陌生的环境里，用不同的活动做法做着同一件事情，跟自己不认识的人做着事。果真，我是有一定程度的顽固。
当然，在过程中，我很幸运，有个那么好的组长，那么的帮我。还有一群做活动的朋友们，他们都帮了我很多，感激。。
someone when people say we are good and we done a good job. we felt guilty. coz we know that somehow in some particular detail, we miss it out. we did something wrong somehow. others might overlooks the problem, still, it remain as a stink in our shirt. for us, it spoils. for others, the overall performance are good without being too precised about the detail.
let's just think of this problem; are we being too particular? or are we being too perfectionist?
Lately, I hadn’t updated my blog for such a long time. Not to mention about my blog, I don even have time to surf the web at all. It’s kinda busy these days.. busy with the activity carrying out soon.. I am so stress out in certain time.. yet, there is a sense of satisfaction toward it.
For once, it had glance thru my mind, image of him. It is clear that I hadn’t been able to forget him. Busyiness just allow me to stop thinking about him for a moment. When I am free, still, I will think of him. I just wonder, when am I going to stop this? Having more new fren, hanging out with friend, working, doing activity.. all those are just a temporary incident which allow me to put him aside for a while. Yet, there are so many thing that remind me of him.
I need to make this an end.
最近真的有点忙，都常常不在家，真的就得很不对，因为我少了时间陪妈妈。。有点过意不去。。有时候早上妈妈等我一起去吃早餐，哪里知道我的电话一响，我又要去做工了。。那妈妈不就早上白白让自己肚子饿了吗？？惭愧惭愧。。
妈妈，我真的好想有更多时间陪陪你。。
haiz.. that day, i'm crying like nuts..
真的很舍不得
做人呢，还是得过且过得好。如果真的要什么事都要那么的完美无瑕。。那我会建议你陪陪我一起去小农场帮我打理打理一下。。
i was like, wat the hell, man!! wow.. getting piss off quite often..
I’m a little bit on fire today. Damn it.. those ppl juz keep on adding oil on the flame. Hello, wat’s wrong with you guys?? Do I look too tame to u guys?
In the morning, I’m piss off with my colleagues. Hello, you are juz a worker here. Wat right u have to question wat your boss Is doing? I don like ppl who criticize my bro and my mum in front of us. No no no, shud say I don like ppl hu critic my family members, unless I ask u personally. Or else, back off please, don tell.
Later, somemore keep grumble abt my laptop, wat’s wrong wit it. If u don like, u could have stop using my one. Stop criticizing my babe as well.
At evening, those language centre ppl come and then wanna try to find business here. Wanna ask my bro to learn wor.. wow.. no way man. We are even planning to stop giving him tuition, wat’s more to give additional class. Which mean more babysitting-driver-time-consuming?? The biggest problem is not taking him to tuition, but, he is not interest in studying. Then why force him to? Useless right?
Plus, I am not satisfy with that language centre at all, since they keep asking feedback, well here I go. I’ll just tell u how I feel, since u ask for it. I’m being very moody for the whole day, yet, got ppl so stupid come and korek lubang for me to shoot them. But honest speaking, I really think I learn nothing much from the centre lo, my English standard still tat poor. If this is wat 2k pay, mayb u guys shud reconsider read my blog again and have a look on my English. I feel like 2k is like dumping the money in the ocean.. woo… I rather spend on braises as I did now….
If this is the case, I think spending money on braises is the thing that make me feel worth it. I really satisfy lo. I do think spending so much on the language centre is so waste.. regret so much.. I should have use these money to learn piano or learn Japanese language instead.. or mayb belanja my fren eat also can. Or can go overseas with me fren.. woo.. 2k ar!!!
That consultant also very funny eh lo, wanna hear my honest response, yet, she is not satisfy with wat I say. Saying if this is the case, then they couldn’t have survive for so long. Mayb she could have reconsider making a survey on how many student tat continues the study to higher level. Yet, my personal commend could not represent wat they really are.
今天，我发现又有人想骗我哦，还好我还没有越踩越深。。
曾经，我背叛过你。
wow.. it's a different experience. you know u can see a real horse in such a close distance.
真的有点赶，好多事情好像要做，却又懒得做，但，不做又不行，因为答应人了嘛。。
也不好说得那么的大声，毕竟家里做的生意是白事的。。那你们明白咯，就是卖寿木的啦。
一连三天去店里面坐坐，但，除了坐着就真的什么也不用做，还好我聪明，会那杂志去看，要不然我就要看墙壁了。。但其实，没有工作，我没有去店里坐着也无所谓的（但是老妈都会问，你没去店面哦，那就去坐坐咯），反正也没差啦，我通常都是过了十二点才去店面，（好像我是老板似的。。哈），反正，没有人会骂我就是啦。。哈。。
四天三夜的传承营，不是那么容易捱的。尤其是上课的时候，我有时真的很火大的咯，是因为啊，我很讨厌和电脑慢慢的沟通，尤其是我不懂得东西，但这也是为什么我要来传承营的原因咯，因为我不会的东西实在是太多了。所以，我必须忍，必须学会更有耐心。。因为这些东西我是真的想学的。当然，我很感谢那两位‘老前辈’的用心和时间。
鬼马兼‘冷气机’的导师。真的太谢谢你了，是你把我电脑里三分之二的垃圾给清除掉的啦，太开心了。。虽然有时你好像很疯疯癫癫的，但是，做起事来可是很认真的哦。
叫（教）我们的导师之一。我好像把它电脑里面的漫画給搬古过来。
我们几专心一下的。这一天，传承营的三天，我们去了新纪元的‘考察家’参观参观。他们五十多人赶双周刊的报纸，而我们就只有区区不到十个人赶‘纸飞机’。差别好大一下。但是看看别人是怎样做东西也是好的，从中学习嘛。
我是那么的不协调哦，但是没办法啦，倭都没有文学奖的衣服。编辑七人组。我们跟了他们出去采访（其实像是示威多点的活动），之后，我们又去参观他们的广播室，蓝天白云，他们的电台，天空之城，可是可以在加影一带听得到的哦。我也有试一下人家广播的滋味。不错一下。哈。。在还没有走之前，就拍下照片做纪念咯。。（我很抢眼吧？！）
吃完了这一餐就要赶夜车了。回到去不就，就开始赶夜车了。一路赶一路赶，赶到隔天的早上酒店）（九点）左右才做完。虽然还没有达到‘前辈们’的要求，但，我看到自己第一次的作品时还很满意啦，而且，真的很开心一下。我做到了，太好了。当然，和组员一起赶夜车的感觉也很棒。虽然累，但是真的很开心。
星期一早上，我们编辑族五人组一起出发去云顶咯！！心情是兴奋到了极点！那两天的我是疯狂的，拼了命的玩，玩，玩！！真的很想好好的发泄发泄一下的。但，之后，就有点小惭愧，为什么自己会那么的没有节制？歹势歹势。。
碰碰车！！玩到我的脊椎骨被撞到很痛为止。这也玩得很过本一下。哈……
完了很多次的过山车。是有点腻了啦。
就是这两个啦，就是他们两带我们三只小冬瓜这里跑哪里跑的啦。太谢谢你们咯。哈…………
这张照片真的很搞笑！我们三个中间隔了一个印度人，话说，在最右边的认为说，靠边坐要呕比较方便。哈哈…………海盗船还没有开始启动时，我们当然还可以笑得很灿烂啦，但坐到一半时，我已经开始脚软了，救命啊！！！我喊的好大声好大声！！
说到这个玩意儿有多气就有多气，我们可是排了快一个小时的队了，竟然有人那么的无耻，玩插队，他妈的，真的是有够‘有道德’的咯。那也就算了，上了车，竟然有个白目的，一而再再而三的挡我的路，如果，你也驾得快，我没话说，那你现在挡着我的路算什么哦？要不，我还可以兜个几圈的嘛！！！
地方，跳楼机，没想到他竟然会那么的吓死人，从二十楼跌下来的感觉太恐怖了，真搞不懂为什么有些人会选择跳楼，真笨。我只知道，跌下来时，我是怕到连呼吸都停了，感觉自己的心脏快负荷不了这样的紧张。
就写那么多吧，网速真的很乌龟一下。我有点顶不顺了。》。《
finally, the 'war' had ended.. so relief right now...
everywhere you go, you find a mixture of crowd, the mask and unmasked...
at the cross road,
well, tuesday i'll be having another paper. International Business. however, i didn't read anything about it at all. freaking coool yeah?!! ha..
其实，我有想啊，我的朋友都会问我什么好吃(槟城)?? 通常我都不懂得怎么回答他们。而且有常常听到他们说槟城没有东西好吃。
oh god, exam is just around the corner, yet, i'm so demotivated right now. i don feel like reading at all this 3-4 days. so, basically, i'm lurking around in facebook and updating my blog..
曾经我以为，
前几天，和家里的某某人吵架。气，真的超级气的，结果就一边哭，一边驾着我的小绵羊去P.I.S.A 去找我的朋友。我很没有用吧，跟人吵架就会哭。讨厌吵架。讨厌这么爱哭的自己。
I’m rather excited with the test run. Thus, I just slept for 3 and a half hour the night before. I’m tense. What worried me the most is if the trip didn’t follow the exact plan. But, it ended up everything run through very smoothly.
Oh ya. Almost forgot. I’ve joined one of the activities in the Chinese society of USM and I’m running the Penang trip for the newbie.
In order to estimate the exact time of the time flow, I borrowed car from my course mate. At first, I planned to rent a car instead, but when it came to budget, it will be over budget. So, I tried my luck and ask. Finally, I managed to lend one. Problem one solved.
Getting car is a matter, driving car is another. I can’t drive. I can’t trust me myself driving skills. So I can’t risk my team mate life just like that. So I ask for volunteer to drive the car. Luckily, Nic can drive. Thanks god. Another headache being knocked down.
I too was lucky to have the three of them as my team mate. They are very attentive, careful and off course, they help to realize my stress too by making me laugh. Ha..
Here goes the test run. I ask WH to record down whatever thing that came to my mind. After 2 meeting with them, I finally gave up doing the recording and thinking together. So here came rescue ranger no 2.
I used to see thing very fast when I’m visiting. You could categories it as ‘glance through’ instead of ‘see’. I’m more attracted to story instead of wall picture and stuff like that. I won’t even bother to see whether there is any different or look into the description as written on the wall. It so coincident that another girl, jessie of the team is from editor group. It’s so amazing. She’s so attentive. She would have looked into some small detail that you might have miss out. She’s great. And I’m very grateful to have the chance to work with them.
Well, what are my contribution then? Almost everything was divided among them. I’m the big boss then. Ha. I’ll try to notice whatever things that is very important and stuff like that. Maybe my progress is running to fast, now, I felt that almost everything is settled. We would just need to reconfirm during June.
Ok ok. Let begin the test run trip. We first went to Kek Lok Si temple. Since, we arrived earlier than we have planned, we decided to have our breakfast first. We then climbed the leader and up we go. By the time we reach there, I’m gasping and taking time to catch my breath. I’m starting to wonder, am I that old now? Ha. I saw a wishing tree on the main hall there. So we each bought one and wrote our parent name on it. Time is chasing after us. We need to go to the guan yin statue and the pagoda within the time planned. It’s nice and view catching at the guan yin statue there. It’s obvious that they spend a lot on that place. When we were on the way down in the cabel car, we are jammed there. Panic. But soon, it’s fixed. We then go to the pagoda side. We climbed up the pagoda and took some picture. Then we are running down to fetch the car. We are racing with time.
Next, we are going to ‘Khoo Kongsi’. The one dollar entrance fee is worthwhile paying. They had renovated the place there. It’s grand. We met a trishaw man sitting down there resting. So we try to approached the old man and ask him some stories and history about the place where we are standing at that time. He’s stories and time is very much appreciated. Somehow, I saw a foreigner visitor, she is very familiar. I then remembered that I saw her in the Kek Lok Si’s pagoda this very morning. We first went in the museum in ‘Khoo Kongsi’. It’s located at the basement of the temple. They have renovated it and placed some information for the visitor to better understand the meaning of the wall picture and other element in the temple. Again, we are lucky to hear a local tour guide explaining the meaning of the display in the museum. Now I understand what those generation chart is telling me. I intended to follow, but I knew that she don’t really welcome us, so I stopped and start reading some wall information which attract my attention. Meanwhile, Nic too is a smart person and taking picture of the information selectively so that he can read when he’s free. Jessie and WH is reading the information instead. They really read through every single detail. I’m running here and there like monkey. Lolz.. you can say that I’m exploring the place first la. Ha. They also have a mock kitchen there in the basement. There are also mock people sitting in the kitchen table. It scared me at first. It really looked so real. We later see the structure in the temple.
We moved on. Now, this is the most terrible part of the trip. We are searching for a place which can fit in 44 people for lunch. I knew that there is a food court in birch road. So we walk there. But at the junction there, I had forgotten whether to turn left or right. The bank security misleads us. We had turned right instead of turn left. Damn him. We are so exhausted. So we decided that one that day, we will ask the bus driver to drive us there instead of walking there.
According to the plan, we should go to guan yin temple. But when we bypass the Penang Peranakan Mansion, they just simply asking the price and they are telling us that they are offering us RM5 just that day only and for us only. So, the other three is so tempted to go inside for a visit. I then ask that Myanmar boy again to explain to us, I had been there once. So, we just joined in the group and he explained to us what those thing mean. You could see those kitchen ware. Different occasion used dining hall and etc. actually the main reason they are so attracted is because it had been the filming site for ‘Little Nyonya’ and two other movie and drama series. We planned to schedule it inside our trip, but we are considering whether we can bargain a RM5 entrance. Money is a factor. This is because we have a series of activity that we want these newbie to participate and if the trip alone had spend them so much, they won’t be attracted to participate in other activity.
Since we go to the mansion, we need to rush our time to the temple, stop there for a while and walked cross the St. George Church and when to state museum. Nic seem to be rather tired and uninterested to be in the museum. But, I need to motivate them. Coincident, I met a foreigner tourist again who I met in the Kaling Kapitan Masjid while we are on the way to search for lunch. I then chat with him for a while and go on and find thing which can attract my attention. Again, Jessie is reading these information on the wall thoroughly. So glad to have her. I took some photo on the wall info without letting the guard notice. Ha..
Nex, we went to the burmist Buddhist temple. I thought that is the sleeping Buddha. So, all of us are wondering where is the Buddha sleeping? Which hall? Again, I saw a tour guide there. So I just simply ask whether this is the sleeping Buddha. The answer is, we went in the wrong side. This is not the place and that is why we can’t see any Buddha sleeping lo. Ha. However, the place is very interesting.
We then cross the road and reach the sleeping Buddha there. There we go, the sleeping Buddha statue is in the main hall. Now, we see It.
Next, we decide to go to Botanical Garden. But after observing it, we decide to follow back the original plan, which is taking them to Gurney Plaza. However, we will let them take their dinner first and let them shop. So they can pandai pandai plan their time lo. Time management is very important ma. Ha.
We then go to Esplanade as the plan goes. It is so coincident that, today is Earth hour day. So we join in and light the candle. But, we just stopped there for around half hour. but lao lang eh, earth hour, yet they use so many plastic cup. plus, they are wasting candle lo. haiz.. it make no sense leh. we then decided to go to other place as we need to reflect back whether our plan is workable or not. So we went to Tan Jetty and sit in the edge of the bridge. This is an unforgettable memory. I like it. We then discuss. So, there will be slight modification of the original plan.
There is so many coincident in this trip. As a roundup, I do enjoy this trip but I’m very exhausted as well. But I’m glad too to have Nic, Jessie and WH as my team mate.when i saw back those older blog,
坐在缺乏光线的观众席里，
在后边的我，
静静的等待着今晚的演出。
也只能静，
只因为怕我的声音被录了，
话说我的朋友充当了，
今晚文娱的摄影师，
而我选择了坐在她旁边陪伴她。
节目开始了，
我也得更静了。
主席致词之际，
有个带着鸭嘴帽的人，
坐在我前两排的座位。
他的鸭嘴帽，
加上他身穿运动休闲装，
不得不让我多凝视他的背影，
体形的不符，
我知道他并不是他。
表演终于开始了，
来了这场文娱，
我预备了我的泪水，
因为今晚的主题是‘家。圆’。
前两场剧，
我是有些感触，
表演者的台词很熟悉，
那些曾经是我的心声，
内心的叫喊。
但偏偏在场的男士们，
都很破坏气氛，
妈的。。。。!@##$
也因如此我才在想；
是不是男人都比较短命?
或许吧。
也在发呆之际，
我又再次不自觉的偷瞄那个背影。
的确很相似，
也是很怀念的背影。
两年我只能在远处的凝视，
如今也是。
掌声和在座们的吵闹声再次；
把我的注视拉回舞台上。
看到台上们卖力的表演者，
真的很感动，
你们的付出是真的，
回忆也会真实的烙印在心里。
我也很感慨，
曾经为了另一个他，
呆呆的望着他伸出的手，
也一个人躲在角落看着，
朋友们尽情的挥霍着她们的青春，
为她们的生活画上了一页页的回忆。
错过的，
挽回不了，
就让它沉睡吧。
‘如果你遇到这样的挫折却爬不起来，那你就别想在这社会里混了。’这句该不用给版权费了吧??哈。。^^
谢谢啦，虽然你对我是豪不留情的说我笨，是我的错。但我知道你是不希望我再被人利用了吧。希望这一次我没有看错了吧。
现在回看过去，我才发现我是被骗了两次哦。而且两个都是和我最亲近的人。我的眼睛是瞎了是吗?还是我看起来就是那么的好被欺负?两个都是曾经我就信任的人了。一个把我当成是桥的踩着我过。令一个，我想他把我当成是白痴妹吧??
无言。。。。@_@
过了快半年了吧?我脑海里还不时浮现你的身影。每每上课的路程中，我总是在心里咒骂着你，我恨你怎么那么忍心的对我?明天过年了，原本是该开开心心的，但是刚刚在婆婆家时，我又想到他了。
小说是有毒的!!里头的故事情节都不踏实的!!难道我要找一个疼我的人那么的辛苦吗?到现在我的玻璃窗还没修好。怎么办?? =_=!!
好啦，过年了，祝大家新年快乐!快点开花吧!
currently i'm totally stress up. at first i tot that after major i would be very happy since i'll be studying finance which suppose to have calculation most of it. but it seem like i'm wrong in one sense. coz it involve a lot of theory which in turn trigger more headache.. damm it....
i intend to have a free year 3 life in uni so i try to squeeze in as many unit as possible within this sem as well. i took max unit of 20 in total as wat i did in previous sem. thot it would be the same after all. but. once again, reality has proof to me tat i'm wrong again.
there is way too many midterm and assignment as well as quiz.. on9 quizz which i can handle.. i almost crack into thousand piece due to stress itself. i have consider whether i shud have drop one of the course. but problem is i have alr brought the book.. wat if the lecturer change the book?? then i would have implicite sunk cost...
so my decision is stay as it is.. although it's very hectic this sem.. but i do hope i can cope with it. plz... after this sem.. i'll be less burden somehow.. hope lies..
It’s seen that our country is trying to implant a reading culture among the people as what is being advertised in the television. The advertisement shows people reading in the library. Wow, it seems like we, the people of the nation are so hardworking and we are working our way to gain more knowledge from the book! But, how true would that be, I wonder? Just have a look the people around you, you would have found out that mostly what they are reading are academic books.
Academic excellent. Is this what our country is trying to cultivating? It was as if we are being trained to answer the question correctly as being written in the answer skim. We learn, we study, we analyze, we learn the answer for the question and we score in examination. Is this education environment healthy? What are we producing? Our education system is actually giving birth to manlike robot. We are trained to have answer as output. Plus, we are very expertise at copy and paste, aren’t we?
Additionally, companies are asking for candidates with higher education background by rewarding them with higher post position within the company. This makes us greed for the degree certificate. We need the cert in order to be qualified for the job, if we do not want to end in lower paid job.
Not to mention that our parent are always concern about our bright future. They keep themselves up to date as in what requirement we need to fulfill in order to obtain a better living than now. Hence, they try very hard to let us excel in our study.
At the end of the day, what had we learned? Did you still remember what you had learned after your examination? To be more precise, had we learn from what we had studied?......
i still bear in mind that when i 'm a kid, i hardly talk with my grandma. the only time where i could have a very clear picture is when my parent when to kl. that happened when i'm in primary year 5. that is the year when my father had been diagnosed out that he was a cancer patient and need to undergoes lasertherapy.
at that time, my grandma came to our house to take care of me and my younger brother. previously, i thot that my grandma don like me. it happens that this is the truth as my mom approve my prediction. however, i still love my grandma. during that 2 years, grandma is one who take care of me. day by day, i would have hot herbal soup when i walked back home. how sweet is that and i alw belive that it's that herbal soup which make my body stronger and get to see the doctor lesser. this habit make me prefer to have soup included in my meal.
eventually, my dad pass away. then my grandma goes back to her own position again as we have my mom back.
it alw seems to me take that my grandma are someone who is very strict and quiet. but now she is somehow, different.
the moment when my grandma knew that i being cheat by tat guy, she phoned me. actually, i felt very embarassed. i didn't know how was i suppose to meet up my grandma again as well as my cousins brother sister. i try to avoid meeting them. luckily, we didn't have any gathering and my cousin sister was having her spm, so we all met rather late. by the time we met, i'm somehow a little bit more brave. ha =]
we actually met when we are doing 'tang yuan' at my grandma house. still, i feel a little bit odd, embarass and shy to be in there. yet, i'm glad that no one did mention anything about it. that day, my grandma look at me with her face stick so close to me. i'm shock n it's funny. she smile at me. i could always remember that expression.
then, 2 days back, i bring my mom to grandma house again. this time, she touch my hair!! what a suprise!! then i heard it clealy from her mouth. this time, she know that that bullshit cheat my money as well. i knew that she love me and she feel so hurt that i'm being fooled. i try to tilt my head and see my mum reaction as i'm sitted betweeen them. i saw tears in my mom eyes, i observe her facial expression. i know she has been trying her very best not to drop it as much as i do.
i felt so sorry for everyone of my family members. you all suffer because of my fault. i felt guilty as i bring so much trouble to all of u. why should i be that sturborn and not listen to you guys?! what have i done. i have been punished now. and i have to be strong inside myself. i shouldn't have let the past traumatise my present.
shall we all awaits what challenges will i be undertaking?!
This sem is rather tired, as far as i felt. this sem just start for 3 week and now, right now, i'm so exhausted. basically, i only have classes on three days per week but each days schedule is full. N currently, this month calender is full of activities through out the whole month. DIE!!
Yesterday, i went out with my friend. two of them. well. no regret going out at all. i'm rather stress out as i keep thinking of the micoeconomic answer. i felt so stress up when i can't figure out anything from the equation at all. so, i decide to go out with my friend. Actually, we decide it earlier. we are suppose to cancel it as i intend to go for the mccee audition. at last, i didn't go.
it proof to me that my decision to when out with them are right. Plus, I got a free cup of chocolate drink. so nice. haha. thanks to the chocolate with added bit of coffee inside, i manage to find out the answer for the microecon later when i got back home. Add, i borrow another book of 'teng jing shu' from my friend. finally, i finished register for my course elearning online.
When my friend fetch me home, while we are on the way back, i had spoken out what had been trouble me for quite some time. how i struggle among myself and stuff like that. Wow.. i strongly suggest that 3 of us shud have more gathering instead. though we can't have all 5 people to meet up, but 3 of us would be sufficient also.
get back to the point, i found out that there are so many chapter chasing after me. too many books to read from. my god.. haiz... somemore, these lecturer strongly recommend us to keep update with current issue, which mean we have to continuously read newspaper. i didn't used to do it but it seems like i had to start to get use to it now.
well, all the best for this sem. this is all i can say.
i did miss u, dad. somehow, sometime, no always.
ytd, me n my friend were walking into a building where our lecture for microeconomic is held. When we are about to reach the building, i heard someone call 'Phaik Har'. that's strange. from far before i enter the building, i notice there are workers of the construction on the first floor. me notice also that the guy who called my name was the worker with the tattoo on to it one. i though i juz heard it wrongly. but, my friend told me someone juz called my name. so, which mean she heard it as well. Odd.. really odd.
since we are still early for this class, we both decide to go to the bookstore, which locate few block from where we were. so we when, but didn't bought anything.
When we came back, i knew the same guy is talking again. the first time, i ignore it. coz i thot i misheard. now, i keep my footstep slow, i look up to the guy and i knew that i don't know him at all.n
so, who would that be??? i feel threathen. if he is a fren of that bullshit, then wat shud i do? the possibility is large. coz i din know any fren who is doing construction. if that was his fren, he might told him where is to find me during that time exactly. i don wan too meet him anymore. mayb i'm too scare to meet him also.
i'm thinking whether i shud tell my bro. but, i had bring too much trouble to him already. but the matter now is, the more i want to be independent from him and cause less trouble to him, the result always on the opposite side. i feel bad for him, i don wan to be a parasite nor a troublemaker, i just want to be his good sister. How could that be so hard to attain??
