Saturday, January 8, 2011

Day 8 of 2011- emotional day

What is wrong with me? Tend to get rather emo these days.. I myself can’t even figure out an answer. There is way too many incidents that happens around me and my close fren these days.

Eventually, yesterday did wen to GH for a while. But, I din manage to get into and visit. The reason is there can’t be too many visitor per patient. But, it is still ok with me. I think I would had faint if I were to went inside. I would be way too weak that my appearance show.

I could still feel the fear inside my tiny little heart when we are climbing up the ward. I saw a patient being pushed in the bed. I din look at the person, seem not so serious. Yet, I am scared. I thought I am brave. But, I am not. So having to stay outside is good for me.

I asked myself during that time, what if during that time, when my father is spending his last few minute, I am right beside him. N I could still remembered that time I was just 13. To be more precise, it’s 12year n 3 month only. I know it at once that I can’t bear that. I would be shock.

Outside the ward with my cousin, we had a small chit chat. Now I could feel my brother feeling. The moment when he need to start bear all the responsibility of taking care of the whole family. Brother, I am sorry you need to bare those paint all these while. I keep telling myself that I need to grow up, I want to lessen your burden I had caused you. Instead of doing so, I caused more trouble to you. Now I know, sometimes we need to be patient. We mustn’t be too rush. Juz like dar dar say, don be too ‘cong dong’. Think before I act. I would have say that my past incident was a result of many issue and more importantly, it was my attitude that had caused the result.

After what had happened along the way, especially within these few year I am in university, I learned a lot. I appreciated for what had happened. Now, I would say, everything happens with a reason. N I will want myself to learn from this happening. I want to avoid from making the same mistake again.

Now, I learn to appreciate. Still, it was not too late. I am trying to spend more time with my family, especially my mother, whenever I can do so. Having too much uni activity within this year, it make me have less time available. Still, I don wan to leave regret in my uni life. So I scarify some of the time. Many thing happen, it teach me more than what my textbook had taught me about this world. Still, I am waitin to welcome the incoming with hope and optimistic.

Mum, I know u wouldn’t have read my blog, yet, I wanna tell you that I love you. Thanks for all the support and love that you had give me. I know I did hurt you badly when the incident happened. But I am glad it did happen. Now, I am back, together with my heart and soul. I am no longer being chain. Most importantly, mum, thanks for whatever things u had taught me. It come into the reality handy. Your advice in the past help me pass through these rain and storm. Also, uncle, thanks for the courage you had give me on that morning. Without those word, I wouldn’t had climb back so fast. Thanks. I do love my family, and I want to spend more times with them if possible.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Day 6 of 2011-double side of me

Today were both a enjoyin and a bad day for me. I enjoy the whole day with my fren. Bringing her all around the place where I m familiar-place i used to lurk around with. Eatin a lot of stuff which is nice n cheap. ^^ releasing stress for the 2 3rd of my day.

The worst part come wen I attend a meeting. Honestly, don feel like talkin abt it. I m so sensitive I found out. Obviously, I did regret for wat I said to the person as well. Juz like dar dar say, nex time before I even talk wen I am feelin my own temper, it is nice to chill myself down first. N listen to wat my heart say.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Day 5 of 2011-full of excitement

Today was a busy day with a lot of going around. Wen to kao cha in the morning. We went to kek lok si and Georgetown. I actually predicted tat this test run would hav assume a day time duration. Yet, my partners were all very exhausted. Especially miss Q. she had meetin til 5am in the morning. So, I decided to go thru this test run quick. So tat can get back earlier n let her hav more sleep. I was actually lucky that I had plan this test run a little bit by bringing my younger brother around the area before this in the holiday ^^

audition

Today I just came back from an audition. But not as a participant, as a judge indeed. wow, the feelin was so great. N also, I did learn something in return. At least now I know wat r the criteria tat one will look for wen they interview the person. Capability is important, but a lot of people are missing out another thing. Attitude is equivalently important. It represents yourself right in front of me without even having to refer to your intro you had juz written in the paper minutes ago. Impressive isn’t it? Now I get the meaning of wat my lecture told me a year ago. N I am glad. I wasn’t too late to realize these fact. Let juz pray that my incoming interview will be safe and sound. (prayin hard)

SteambOat for Day 2 of Year 2011

Wow, this s a great day for me as well. Having a steamboat. Well to be more precise, it is organizing a steamboat. I used to sit and home n waitin for my mum to finish cookin for me and call me. But today, it was a bit different. I m in the kitchen. Surprise.

But u still need to purchase the ingredient before u even start cookin right? N here we go, we went to an afternoon market near komtar. N we had brought the fishball worth 70 buck. Wow. It is a lot. N after all the purchasing done in both market as well as tesco, we went bac to the place where we will hav the steamboat. N start preparing.

Still, the fishball was juz nice to feed everyone n make them I would say, 80% full. So we purchase again. Well, a little bit of unplanned purchasing. I was way too stingy while my fren was too ‘da fang’-he din even check the price before he buy a thing. Wow….. I could hardly do that.

Afterall, back in kitchen. It was a busy day in kitchen for me that day. But I din help much with the clearing. My duty was to cook the soap all the while. Haha. Luckily another gal was there, or else the kitchen will be messy like hell. Still, I am a bit guilty as I need to hurried home- I am a modern Cinderella. ^^

Night fall n it’s another end of a day. This is a fun and busy day. Still, I enjoy it. The laughter of all of them who present is a compliment to us ^^

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Day 1 of 2011

Today was a wonderful. What’s more, it’s the start of this year. I sense tat something good would hav happened today. N I juz did as I had expected. Cool!
After all the cleaning in the morning, which was being order by my mum to b done, not so willin to done it thought. I then wen out with my fren, jenny. Initially she juz intend to buy dress for cny. N since my mum wasn’t there, I won dare to buy any dress. Wat if the one I chosen didn’t pass her screening. Then gone case.. but still, I like tat dress =[

Then we still hav time, even after we hav wen to the 3 shoppin mall at the area- pragin, 1st avenue, komtar. Then, we decide to take a detour- round Georgetown with shuttle bus. Since it is free, we had nothing to lose since we had so much time left before dinner. Taking about meal, we did hav a big potion for lunch. The main course was so full.. we both are bloated.

Eventually the bus din follow the usual route that they took. I was curious then. Then wen we r abt to going to komtar, we saw CHING-AY. Wow man, let juz stop n hav a look. We both then stop somewhere near then hav a look. Then, something magically juz happen! The guy ask us to try. Wow. That s something we never try before. So excited! It is fun ^^

We then wen to the rapid mobile to play jenga. See, it is rather normal for us to play jenga. But hav u try play it on a bus? It is so diff. u might feel the shake of the bus mid way wen u r pullin out the block. FUN!

Even til the time of dinner, we both can still feel the pasta we had for our lunch. Still, we wen to Campbell street to hav our dinner. We order 3 thing. N guan lai, some was new try by my fren! We then decide to wen for another food trip in pulau tikus. Awaitin the day! 4 more day to go! HURRAY!!