误会？？

在这几星期间，我和他似乎走的太进了。。进的我就得有点不对劲

doggy，i miss you..

haiz.. that day, i'm crying like nuts..

i miss the german serpert so much..

you might curious why i am so sad right?

actually, i am phobia of dog.. ( i had been chase by 3 dog at the same time during childhood.. that is what ppl say childhood phobia.. since then i am damm scare of dog)

but when i went to my bro farm, he release the dog.. OMG.. i stunt there.. then the german serpert approach me slowly.. mayb he can sense my fear.. so that is why lo.. then when i pat his head, he is like so enjoy...

oh, now i know why he keep on barking whenever he sees there is a visitor.. and that is also the reason why my bro say the dog eq is juz 3 yrs old kid.. so pempered..

but on fri went i wen to the farm and din see him, i am so sad.. i felt like losing something important to me... now i understand why some people cry so badly when their dogs pass away.. i cry for the whole morning.. i am so sad... i am curious as well.. why am i so attach with that dog alone?

doggy i miss you.. hope can see you soon.. ( coz now he is in the new home liao.. ）

放弃吗？离开吗？

真的很舍不得

不舍的再生她的气

不舍得再和她的关系僵硬

不舍这一段情

或许曾经气她

或许她会再背叛我

但心里还是会原谅她

是自己的心太软吗

我真的很没有用吧

越大就越不争气

原谅她吧，心里终会如此地说

不自觉地就心软了

鸡蛋里挑骨头

做人呢，还是得过且过得好。如果真的要什么事都要那么的完美无瑕。。那我会建议你陪陪我一起去小农场帮我打理打理一下。。

我要做的东西并不多，喂鸡和鹅吃。但是，还没有喂它们前，你要进去鹅的地区，那里有一间一间的鸡笼。。你要在鸡笼里拿水桶，要注意鸡会琢你时，还要注意鹅。。危险。。拿了水桶就要洗，装水，再放回去鸡笼里。再一次注意鸡和鹅。。顺便可以喂鸡。。要注意，有时鸡会飞出来。。吓死我。。我已经是有够怕的了，又飞出来吓我。。我的手震到。。。

喂了它们就要冲洗狗狗的便便。。狗我怕，但是怕也要做。。没办法了，只有硬着头皮咯。

你猜猜做这么琐碎的是要我多少的时间？？就一个半小时左右。

试想想如果我什么事都那么的讲究，那我三个小时都做不完我的事了。。这里不干净从洗，再洗。。再想想，你洗那么的干净有用吗？？那些鸡和鹅过了几秒又把它给弄肮脏了。。白费功夫。。

忘了补充，就我一个人做。。。

所以，有时呢，做事就得过且过。。但是，还是有些东西是要很谨慎的。。

cloudy though

i was like, wat the hell, man!! wow.. getting piss off quite often..

walau eh, he has cross the border so much.. wat the heck. even though this is our family business, wat is it to do with you?? do u really know wat is the real situation is? how could u juz say that we don even bother abt it? hello, the 1st day i wen to work there, i din even stay there for 1 hour, u have alr ask me to go bac home, do u remember?? and now u are blaming tat we don bother abt our family business?? fxxx u man!! stop critisizing my family members!! u aren't tat good either.

damm piss off..

actually, i have been wondering.. why am i so emotional?? i hadn't been behaving like that wen i was working in other place.. is it bcoz i treat myself like a outsider when i was working elsewhere. but now i am working, so i don think it is fair to have drag my family members into the matter..

plz, be more considerate when u are abt to mumble other nex time. work is work. don mix it with my family. i don know wen i am going to fight bac. if i do, i won think u would wan to see tat as well. i will treat u like a stranger.

on fire

I’m a little bit on fire today. Damn it.. those ppl juz keep on adding oil on the flame. Hello, wat’s wrong with you guys?? Do I look too tame to u guys?

In the morning, I’m piss off with my colleagues. Hello, you are juz a worker here. Wat right u have to question wat your boss Is doing? I don like ppl who criticize my bro and my mum in front of us. No no no, shud say I don like ppl hu critic my family members, unless I ask u personally. Or else, back off please, don tell.

Later, somemore keep grumble abt my laptop, wat’s wrong wit it. If u don like, u could have stop using my one. Stop criticizing my babe as well.

At evening, those language centre ppl come and then wanna try to find business here. Wanna ask my bro to learn wor.. wow.. no way man. We are even planning to stop giving him tuition, wat’s more to give additional class. Which mean more babysitting-driver-time-consuming?? The biggest problem is not taking him to tuition, but, he is not interest in studying. Then why force him to? Useless right?

Plus, I am not satisfy with that language centre at all, since they keep asking feedback, well here I go. I’ll just tell u how I feel, since u ask for it. I’m being very moody for the whole day, yet, got ppl so stupid come and korek lubang for me to shoot them. But honest speaking, I really think I learn nothing much from the centre lo, my English standard still tat poor. If this is wat 2k pay, mayb u guys shud reconsider read my blog again and have a look on my English. I feel like 2k is like dumping the money in the ocean.. woo… I rather spend on braises as I did now….

If this is the case, I think spending money on braises is the thing that make me feel worth it. I really satisfy lo. I do think spending so much on the language centre is so waste.. regret so much.. I should have use these money to learn piano or learn Japanese language instead.. or mayb belanja my fren eat also can. Or can go overseas with me fren.. woo.. 2k ar!!!

That consultant also very funny eh lo, wanna hear my honest response, yet, she is not satisfy with wat I say. Saying if this is the case, then they couldn’t have survive for so long. Mayb she could have reconsider making a survey on how many student tat continues the study to higher level. Yet, my personal commend could not represent wat they really are.

笨笨的我

今天，我发现又有人想骗我哦，还好我还没有越踩越深。。

这边才觉得有点点心动，这边就觉得怪怪的。。话头和话尾都不接的。。有问题。。

我的直觉应该没有错。。他有女朋友的了。。他妈的，想一脚踏两船，那我就让你的船陈下海吧！！真的是，找死！！

但是，我现在好像会一直猜测别人有没有在骗我，我真的是怕透了。。被骗到怕极了。。阴影。。

其实，自己也没有踩那么深。。应该说只是把他当成是‘大海中的浮木’，暂时做我的希望的寄托吧。。我很坏哦？？但是，现在的人，都非常非常的现实了。感情，都不会把它当成一回事。。那我又何必那么的执着呢？？看开一点好吗？多少也为了自己而活好吗？？

到今天，我最少认清了一回事，我还是很怕，现在的我太害怕再一次的受伤了。。

矛盾中。。

曾经，我背叛过你。

没有守着我们的约定，离你而去。

为何，你还告诉我你在想我？？

是真的还想和我在一起吗？

两年半了，时间过了那么久了，那段情还没断码？

为何你不去找个更好的呢？

别再浪费你的时间了好吗？

我真的怕了，好想躲起来，像个乌龟一样，躲在自己的龟壳里。

有时真的很感动，但是又怕是自己自作多情。。

又怕再次被骗。。

或许该好好的把我的情绪给收藏好。。

同个时候，又会有些渴望。。

好矛盾哦。。。。。

short visit to penang turf club

wow.. it's a different experience. you know u can see a real horse in such a close distance.

i even touch the horse, help clean the horse shoes, bringing the horse for a short walk.. wow... it's so fun..

i have pass by PTC for so many times yet i have never when in b4.. this is the 1st time.. so we are like so sua-pa.. anyway, it's a fun experience and a memorable one ^^

时间不够用

真的有点赶，好多事情好像要做，却又懒得做，但，不做又不行，因为答应人了嘛。。

有时候会遇到瓶颈。。真的自己的idea真的不多。。真的不是creative的人咯。。

昨天，有件事真的很搞笑。。遇到我的ex，但真的认不出他了。。糟糕。。他还认得我。。真的有够歹势的咯。。我还问他，‘steven oh?' 真的是oh my god.. 真的是有够鱼的咯。。。