Revealing

I just lost count and I don’t remember since when did I had crush with you. But I knew exactly it doesn’t happen just because of those rumor. I couldn’t remember when this odd feeling start and I refuse to have admitted it. But as time flies, it keep prove to me that I do like you.

I cried not because I am going to leave studying life, rather, it put an end for giving me excuse to meet you.

When my friend joke around me and another guy, your name run through my mind when they text “I Love You” from my cell phone.

Whenever I meet you or think of you, it keeps my lip hanging with a smile for the whole day for no reason.

Keeping track on what’s happening around you keep me going online.

My heart sink whenever I though your status no longer remain as single.

Things are getting out of my control. And this is what I fear the most. It reminds me during those haunted day whereby my soul was being chain and remote by someone. I won’t wish the same incident would happen again. I need to put a stop to all this.

Apologize as I didn’t realize the promise that I had made. I never told you how I really felt. Sometimes, I wonder whether you had the same feeling as well? Or was those just my imagination or am I being over-sensitive. The biggest problem is, you and I never mention the ‘you’ we are referring to. It might be you already have a partner as for now? Or?? What other possibility? I would never dare myself to told you it is me that you are mentioning.

I found no courage to tell you the truth. I might not be the one you are seeking though you are the cup of my tea. Would you have accept me? Or most all, could I even accept myself? I lied when I said I had manage to stand back to my feet after all these day. The truth is, I could barely withstand those critic and judgement from others.

Now, I just need the right man to be there. One and only one. One who could accept me, one who could bring help me pass through all those emotional barrel of mine, one who could love the real me as I am now, even I have a short hair cut. Are you the one? I don’t wish to ‘try and see lo’ status. My heart couldn’t bare another punch. Please forgive me for not following the word of my tongue. I do like you.